Hahah. The Linker always coming back. If I recall correctly he was harmless but quite dumb in his ban evade. Making it clear with his new usernames who he was. Quite amusing. I don't even remember why he was supended originally but I think it was not taht big of a deal and he just made things worse by creating new accounts to ban evade. hahahah.
Yeah, I think he was originally given a short ban for spamming or something stupid. Just a slap on the wrist to make him realize he had to shape up or ship out. But then came Linker2, Linker3, The Linker, etc. etc. etc.
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I don't think taht. What makes you say that?
I guess that comment probably did count as fishing for compliments, didn't it? I swear that's not what I meant. I really do think I was a terrible person back then, but I've made my peace with it. I'm pretty happy with who I am now. And, for me, becoming a person that I can respect required that I realize the things that I didn't like about myself.
Of course, part of it was just that I was a teenager. I had more pride than sense, and I was arrogant without the experience, skills, or knowledge that would have earned me a bit of arrogance. I got in stupid arguments, made a big deal about stupid things that didn't matter, and engaged with every petty drama that passed through the login screen of TSR. But that's just being a teenager, and I grew out of it.
The really bad part is that I was a product of a nutjob catholic fundamentalist environment. I got in arguments about whether or not god could be logically proven to exist. I was strongly pro-War, and pro-Bush. I was vocally anti-choice, and probably made more than my fair share of comments that in retrospect would disturbingly sexist or racist. I did a lot of sexual moralizing about how everyone should wait for marriage and blah blah blah. I barely knew Quistis, and I took the time to send her stupidly judgmental messages. And I was a huge fucking homophobe. One particularly shameful memory is when I listed my occupation as "homicide," because I was a was such a brooding, edgy teenager.
But I was also poorly educated, so I misspelled the word as "Homocide." Sammi pointed out the misspelling, and noted that the way it was spelled looked like it was my occupation to kill gay people. My response was to say "Yeah, sounds right to me!" And I left it unchanged for months.
I am ashamed of who I was back then, and I don't feel bad about that shame. If not for TSR, I never would have grown. I lived my whole life in the bubble my parents created for me. TSR was the first time in my life that anybody told me I was wrong about the hateful things I believed. The community began the process of my own self betterment, and within 3 years of joining I had completely left all of that behind me and was working to make amends for my failings.
One thing I can be somewhat proud of is that I don't think I was ever anything but supportive of Ashleigh when she expressed how she didn't feel like she belonged in her gender. I don't think I'd ever even really heard of transgendered people before I met Ashleigh. I hadn't been raised to hate them the way I'd been raised to hate other groups, so my first instinct was to try and be understanding towards her. So I wasn't a complete monster. =P
I mean, I imagine if I'd been too aggressive about my bullshit I would've just been banned outright. So I suppose at least I was kinda subtle about it? =P