Posts by 'zilla

No job at the moment. I've been trying to get a good one for over two years, to no avail. It's getting absurd, but I'm stubborn, and now I'm taking extra classes to increase my employability.

But the truth of the matter is, I'm privileged as crap simply because I live in Norway. Free education, highly educated population, low unemployment and high salaries means that once I get the job I'm qualified for, it'll be a paradigm shift in my life.

I'm a graduate engineer and I spent 6.5 years of my life suffering to achieve and finish this, so it better be worth it.

I've gone semi-frequently at multiple times in my life. Going to the gym wears me out, but makes me noticeably happier or more talkative. In the long run, it activates me and gives me a sense of achievement. It's also the only cure for my persistent skeletal skinniness. Then again, the gym is super boring.

Today, I tried kayaking for the first time in my life, and I loved it. I have the luxury of living super close to a beach in a city that funds kayaking, so I might just get a wetsuit and paddle around a bit and skip the gym.

Seeing the thread about the old TSR community, I was inspired to create this one. It's a place to details your online wanderings, however long or short, and the places that have shaped and defined you.

Highlights of my own past online life, in chronological order:

• Nintendo Norway: 2000, the first place where I felt I belonged. We had a pink chatroom for members and we were really nice to one another. There also was a forum existing for about a decade, with a bunch of lingering nostalgic veterans.
• OORPG: around 2001, my first exposure to the English internet. It didn't last for long, but one of my close friends had a boyfriend there. I mostly had a broken heart and a bunch of self-pity.
  
• Spira Online/TSR/ToH: is the place that has stuck around the longest. Includes a bunch of you other old farts here!
• TPF/Cerapter.net Online: my own community in Norwegian, Pokémon related. Reached about 10k posts then faded. I bumped into one of the biggest posters IRL for the first time last week!
• LotR Norway: I was part of the big Tolkien geek community in my country, and soon became a veteran. Several of my most interesting friends IRL were part of this community too, and I've gone to medieval fairs with them.
  
• Machinae Supremacy Forum: never listened as much to one band as this one, and on their forum I had a kind of spam renaissance, reawakening the joy of posting a lot of silly harmless stuff. Throughout my time there, my avatars featured sexy pikachu chicks or sexy chicks dressed as pikachus.
  
• Draconity.org: I had an Otherkin journey once, and bumped into this closed community out of curiosity. A surprisingly active place. Met some really nice people with very fascinating thoughts, but in the end I couldn't relate to them as a community and grew apart from the identity.

That's about it. My golden time was 2001-2003, and the past decade I've been more of a lurker due to real-life occupations.

When I was young, the internet was a different place! Meh, I always wanted to be ancient anyway:XD:

I remember most of that! Although many details elude me.

Rinny, Rikku (maybe many used that username) and I knew each other well before we came to Spira Online. Rikku invited me, and then I launched an epic post count rivalry with LinkSkywalker. Great times. The girls are still good friends of mine IRL, and we all live in Oslo at the moment.

The purple TSR was such a fancy hi-tech update, I thought at the time. Yet I was somewhat estranged and astonished that the ass Dark The 7th was a moderator.

Still have one of the banners I designed for the purple TSR

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I chose Godzilla as my first online username. My friend chose Dracula. It was probably 1999.

At the time, I thought Godzilla in the '98 Hollywood version was the coolest creature ever. I really wanted to be a dinosaur so I could be just as cool and show off to the big kids in school so they would never bug me anymore.

I largely stopped using it a long time ago, but I'll always be 'zilla to those who remember.

Dangit you guys, this forum is too interesting. I was only going to stop by for a sec, and now it's 3am. :@_@:

Definitely Final Fantasy VI. A wealth of gameplay and story, amazing music. I remember getting so emotionally involved as a kid, especially Celes' theme with its strong yearning and lament, and the melancholy determination of the overworld themes.

In second place is Donkey Kong Country 2. A much more light-hearted game, but its music is also very rich with wonder and melancholy. The gameplay is wonderful, with great replay value, and the graphics still look great.

Super Mario World was also great fun, and I've played it and cleared it all several times.

The other good ones, I never played on the SNES itself.

Belief... my life is full of it. I believe my future will be good, I believe I will survive until old age and that nobody will ever cut off my arms. I have no proof of this, it is simply my faith in the world.

Ethically, I believe in virtues, and I am an idealist with many beliefs about humanity, society and the environment. I believe in love and wonder and in the good in human beings. That is, there is something in us that I believe is good, and that it has the power to make more things good. I believe dogma and judgement are vices that will not create good.

Furthermore, I believe that being sentient is a fundamentally subjective experience, and that society and communication relies on vast compromise. Therefore I believe that the abilities and potential of the human mind far exceeds what we are able to express and even understand.

Herein lies a nugget of my respect for religion, because I see it as a magnificent attempt to approach a sense in existence seen through a sentient mind. A religion is humanity trying to speak a great epic about itself, words and gods that then come to life through our adherence to them. And I believe religion is a symptom of our recent cultural evolution; as we slowly moved towards a more collective state, like cells in a greater body, what used to be stories of ancestors and nature took on new roles involving power and complicated societal structures. I believe religion legitimately provides a great deal of people with subjective experiences that we once needed and received in an ancient world that no longer exists for us. I believe the "ghost" of religion is a part of humanity, which has ever been with us as an ethereal canvas on which to write who and what we are. Thus I do not believe religion is the first or necessarily the best way to paint these stories, but it is the most comprehensively wrought, and I admire it like metaphysical architecture and art.

Purely metaphysically, I believe there is sensation beyond death, whether it be the immortality of the soul or a union with the cosmos. I believe, for some reason, that I have experienced something before this life, something very different, and that I haven't been human before. Actually, these beliefs are vastly more interesting to me as reflections on my psyche, which I believe is the true and only divinity in a conscious life, than they are claims of physical facts. Even so, I believe the psyche–or subconscious–is severely limited yet hinting to a higher evolutionary stage. I believe sentient life is capable of transcending to become, in some respect, immortal gods. And I believe we might do this one day if we merge with, or are succeeded by, artificial intelligence.

Lastly, I believe that I don't get it.

I think the album they released with Skyward Sword did a very good take on Gerudo Valley:

Nice hat!